It's been a few days (again) since I've blogged. It's also been a few days since I have written my letters. Tuesday flew by and then I traveled all day on Wednesday. I'm away on a business trip. I brought my cards with me, thinking I would write letters on the plane. I never got in the mood and I think that is important. My morning meeting was canceled, so I find myself with two hours of free time. I just wrote five letters. Two of them were make-ups, one was for today and I got ahead of the game by writing through Saturday's letters. I feel crappy when I skip a day. Maybe "crappy" isn't the right word. I feel "guilty". I feel like I am breaking my own rules and not living up to my commitment. When I don't write it's usually because I am wrapped up in something and I am not in the space to write a letter. My objective with writing one per day is to get in touch with the love and gratitude on a daily basis. I always make up the letters to be sure I am sending out a daily dose of love (on average). Once I'm caught up, I feel so much better.
So, I've been thinking about this "guilt"... a self imposed, unproductive emotion! After careful consideration I've decided a few things. One is that it is important to be in the right space to send out the best possible love and gratitude that I can. I don't want to be writing out of obligation. The second is that what I'm doing is good, even if the love comes in waves. Missing a day here and there and "double dosing" to make up for it is FINE! I swear, I am my own worst enemy sometimes!
I have written sixty four letters. That is a LOT of love. I am struck by the magnitude of the love in my life. I have written to sixty four incredible people whom I truly love. I am blessed with having amazing people all around me. And...it's only day sixty four! I have 300 more people to go! I've got lots more to get to and hopefully I will meet some new amazing people along the way. Life is good... : )
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