Day Thirty Six

Today was a good day. I went to my class at FIDM. I feel so good when I'm there. I'm inspired by the material in class. I really like the woman who is training me. She is the assistant chair of the Textile Science department. She is a GREAT teacher and has set the bar really high for me. I like to be challenged. She took to me instantly and thinks I am a great fit for the school. I love her style. I am a student auditing the class right now and I am excelling. (As I should be, since I've been in the textile business for 20 years!) It feels good to excel and to be embraced for being strong and intelligent. I don't feel like I need to shrink around her. I love it! I've also challenged her a bit with some of the material. I don't think she has faced that too often.

Things are looking up with China too. The salesman is currently there, smoothing out some rough spots and singing my praises. I feel much better than I had been feeling about things. I've also gotten some designs started with Brazil.

I've been in a real slump with my personal stuff. Very much out of alignment with food and eating. I haven't been able to get myself on the right track. I feel myself coming out of it--thank God! I'm making a plan...

Today I went shopping for more note cards. I went to my favorite spot-Papyrus. I was slightly disappointed last time I went there. This time it was great. I found a whole bunch of stuff that made me feel something. That's the way I like it. I even found some beautiful cards that instantly make me think of my mother. Something she will love. I have thoughts of what I will write to her floating around in my head. I know I will work it out. Having the right card helps...seems silly but it's true.

My daughter's not speaking to me again. Everything was great last night. She had an audition with an agent. She was so chatty and excited on the way home and then like the flip of a switch she turned on me. She's barely talking to me again. I don't know how to do this...it sucks.

Yesterday I wrote to a good friend of mine. She is an amazing woman, an attorney with an autistic son and an adopted daughter. She has love, dedication and passion for her son and her family like I have never seen before. She has such a difficult path. I wanted to let her know what an inspiration she is to me and I'm sure so many others.

Today I wrote to my really good friend from back east. She is one of the most soulful women I know. She is filled with wisdom, a quiet grace, endless creativity, a loving, nurturing heart and a very deep spirit. I miss her very much. I told her just how incredible she is and how much I miss her.